Sandrine aka Zhang Rong Rong is a Talented Beauty

Taiwan has a rising star. A new movie queen . I couldn't agree more for after knowing her through the taiwan's drama Endless Love it is really an eye opener. I am not a big fan of taiwan's drama series production but Rong Rong is an amazing actress and she truly brought her role to life.Rong Rong's has this gentle and forgiving smile that even if she is faking it it seemed really sincere and genuine. I have never seen a taiwan drama actress with such remarkable talent.Well for the leading actor, Wilber Pan did a good job. I think among many different Taiwan male actors that i have seen ,his acting skills in this drama is truly convincing. I believe there's a warm connection between myself and the plot of this drama series.Apart from the tragic death of Jing Hao's mother and his dad going dementia and Rui En's dad who turn into a complete arse because he was over protective. I mean apart from all those that never happened to me, there are similarities to my personal experiences. I once felt inferior and i feel that the girl that i love is just too good to be true and the part whereby Jing Hao felt inferior and try to distant himself from Rui En brings back a lot of memories. Rui En despite being chased away never gave up on the man that she loves and i find that very noble and memorable for once i knew a girl who had love me as much but the only difference would be that she gave up on us. I find that this drama gives me a lot of hope and i believe it would provide the same experience to others as well. Call me sappy or emo but this drama really touches my soul. Rong Rong is such a good actress and she's so good at the things that she does, till the extent that she made me feel like i want to reach out for her and comfort her as she was crying . Awesome acting...thumbs up

Promotion

It has been a practise within my establishment
To climb the ladder we need to anticipate for an opening and apply
I have been passing out on two openings in lack of self confidence
Despite my achievements and endless compliments i'm still in lack of guts to try

Eventhough i have been constantly encouraged by my peers and supervisor
Each time i have the intention to apply i ended up not doing so
Perhaps it is the devotion towards my company and team mates that i'm not prepared to endure
Perhaps i am just taking things too slow

Alvy is right , we're not young anymore
How am i suppose to pass the torch to the younger generation if its not lighted
I have to learn to stop hiding behind
I have to show the company that i am also interested

Grandma

October 31st marks the date for Celts celebration of spirits coming back for a home visit
It was on this same day that my beloved grandma's soul left her body
I was shaken with disbelief and kept asking myself is this it?
Grandma i should have came back earlier and pay you a visit,i'm left speechless incapable to say it out,only by tears to show you i am sorry

Guided by taoist and rituals that were foreign to me
Walking in circles around your coffin and the funeral parlour
Each circle i take brings back a memory of you and me
Reminding me of how much you have sacrificed for our family,uttering a prayer hoping you could hear

Each time i kneel down,i could hear your words of advice
Flashbacks of my childhood as you bathe, feed and took good care of me
You would wake up as the sun rises just to get my favourite breakfeast and eventhough it was in a village you made sure that my life was comfortable and nice
I never have the opportunity to tell you how much i love you,i hope you are able to see

Every bow i take reminds me of how much you have suffered
As i touch your kind face for the last time it breaks my heart to know that i would not be able to see you again
Of the times you have cried with regrets and the endless pain that you have rendered
I was filled with sorrow too and kept wishing that i could take away your pain

Yet , this is not goodbye for you would always remain in a very special place within my heart
Grandpa misses you so, and so is the rest of our family
Grandma, i have always been afraid that this day would come and we would be really far apart
In someplace,sometime,you have never left, you've always been here with me

10/10/10

Today is an auspicious day people say
The 10th day of the 10th month of year 2010
For myself it ought to mean my youthful days are over and away
Yet it felt like yesterday i went to bed being seventeen and i woke up as a 27 year old man

I have been through a lot being seventeen
I have been loved by maidens and admired by many
Eventhough i have not always been academically promising
Life has been very fair to me

There were times of glory and there were moments of despair
There were times i blame life and hated my existence
Till one fine day i woke up to the blazing sun and realise that lady luck has always been there
I was too troubled with sorrow that i forgot to live my life with passion

These ten years have been filled with endless passion
Dare to live,dare to love and dare to face its consequences
Someday,i may grow old with alzheimer,lots of wrinkles, a few strains of hair and a bad vision
Somehow, i shall never regret for having a blessed life as the son of my parents,a real brother to my sisters

Till the day i am no longer around to continue this blog
My passion would be read out loud and spread around by story tellers just like a legend
Old is just out of my dictionary,i shall never allow myself to be out of stock
My heart and soul will always be seventeen ,i'm the heir to an immortal prophecy,an ageless descendant

Yester Years

Do you remember the times we used to tease and tickle each other?
Sharing secrets and laughter
By having you around me, i was always looking forward for each day after another
I really wanted to hold you close the day you shed a tear

Do you remember the way we used to walked down the hallways
Walking passed classes ,strangers and people we know
How you used to insist on slinging my bag and putting on my name tag just to play
I was naive enough to believe there's many more moments like this for time passes real slow

Do you remember the number of times you have skipped classes just to hang around with me
Sharing dreams and ambitions that only belong within the world of our own
I do remember resting my head on your lap and wished it would last for eternity
While you were caressing my hair i sense your love for me,eventhough it was mere actions alone

I do remember we were really tight, we were very close
Till the extent friends took us for lovers by mistake
Is it really a misunderstanding and you're nothing more than my closest buddy or have you been living within me from the very beginning, blossoming as a rose
Till this day, we would never know the way we feel for each other,our beautiful moments were formed, fallen from the sky and turned into water just like a snow flake

Today as i hold back my breath,i had to hold back my feelings as well
Watching you walking down the hallway again but this time with someone else
Witnessing the time of your life while you're exchanging oath,i shed tears of joy while wishing you well
Till we meet again some other time,some place else...do you remember?

Dreams & Material Expectations

Have you ever been in a circumstance which you find it hard to differenciate dreams and reality? Have you ever woke up one fine day and realised the stuff that you've been doing which feels so real,so genuine as if you're really doing it isn't happening in the first place?

I have the courtesy of experiencing such a dream.I dreamed of going back to law school part time while working.Everything seemed so real including my classmates,lecturer,studying materials and the length of time we took to study and sit for exams.It gets even more strange as i experienced dreaming about the same dream everyday as if one dream is a continuation of another. Day by day as i come back from work and get into a deep sleep it was time for class to begin.

Theory of inception? someone planted this dream into my head? It would be cool if it really did happen. At least i wouldn't sit here blogging and feeling so lost . Perhaps it is this gut feeling in me that would like to return to my studies. No, i have made a deal with myself to save up to buy a house and purchase a new car. Studies can wait. I need to work hard to get a golden bone to shut the mouth of those who looked down on me.

I have always had the impression that i would get a house build once i am steadily married but according to my sister ,getting a house should be made a priority before getting a car or buying a new car. Eventhough this idea sounds absurd but it does have its logics from a financial standpoint. My sweet old granny in the other hand,provided her point of view from a traditional standpoint. According to grandma, i am the only son in my family so my parents house would eventually be my inheritance and i need not worry about not having a house of my own.

Well,i do not know if my parents live by that concept but it does feel good to have a house that i build with my own earnings. It is a good investment. My house isn't necessarily occupied by myself . I can always rent it out and wait for its value to increase and sell it off.I have a lot to think in my mind right now. I am controlling myself from buying a car first eventhough Alza seemed so tempting as if its calling out for me. I should get a house first but it feels really inconvenient to not have a car that belongs solely to me instead of sharing with my family members.

Love Does Exist In Many Forms

I have been in but never seem to fall out of love. It is strange because usually people fall in and out of love. I guess being a libran my life is always filled with romance and eventhough at times people find me too emotional or too sappy it doesn't bother me at all for i have faith in the purity of love.


Some of my friends find that my mindset is ridiculous and unrealistic and yes it is true indeed but if everything in life has to be cold and realistic then life is as good as death for there is no imagination, no passion, no drive nor motivation to stand up in the name of love. There are those who believe that the truth about life is just being born into this world, reproduce,populate this world and continue our generation and then pass on to the realm of death.Love, to them is just a gimmick, an idea that is created by men to make life more interesting. According to these people, love is nothing but lies .Romance is just a result of our hormones because men are created to meet,mate and reproduce since the cavemen days.

As for myself, i believe that love and romance isn't just an idea to make reproduction seem more interesting.I believe we have far evolved eversince the cavemen period and we don't go around simply grabbing a girl and mate .I believe love has a larger than life meaning than merely to reproduce.

I still believe in the greatness of a noble love. Our ancestors during the cave men period eventhough they were barbarians,without education,without ethics but i believe as they choose their ladies to mate, there must have been feelings of love apart from hormones and the urge to have sex.The only difference is that at that time, they are unable to identify and distinguish their feelings for each other. The only thing that they are aware of as cavemen would be the fact that loneliness isn't exactly cool and therefore they hunt in search of companions.

Sex without love isn't as amazing as sex out of love.Genghis Khan had many concubines but he was one of the most loneliest man in history and it is because he never seem to be able to experience the feeling of being loved in return by those ladies he raped and forcefully get them to bear his children.