What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?

"I expect more from you, you can do very well but you choosed to remain playful" a very wise lecturer once told me. Till this very day, her words of wisdom kept haunting me. I was a fickel minded character. Upon the completion of O Levels i didn't chase after my ambition instead i seek opinions from guidance councellors and education officers on the course which has the largest job prospect after graduation. Hospitality, i did my Hotel and tourism Management course along with its industrial training only to realise that i have been stepping my foot into the wrong shoes. These shoes just simply do not fit!

I switched to law although my mom disagreed for it was in her opinion that it is too serious for me. "Law is a dry subject and soon you will lose all interest in it" she said. True enough, after our A Levels, most of my coursemates head for KL to pursue their degree in law and as for me , i am laid back here attempting to pursue a law degree from the University Of London as a private candidate. I do not have the discipline and motivation necessary to self study from home. Hence, i delayed my studies and started job hopping.

Flashing back, a switch from a hotel background which was filled with excitement and challenges to something as strict and dry as law has been a drastic change of atmosphere for myself. I was too naive believing that as long as i have the ability to reason, to construct a good arguement and to write creatively and expressively i can do very well in the field of law.

Eversince i was a kid i have dreamed of becoming a lawyer , an entrepreneur or a writer. Television misleaded me and have me believed that lawyers are the vigilantes of courtrooms. Upon learning and seeing with my naked eyes the reality of practising law, every hope and aspirations turned dry. In reality lawyers are basically interpretors of statutes and the profession is not really as gung ho as it seemed on tv. Oh my life and death is in your hands o barrister, you are my light, my saviour...fuhhh ...dramatic but not in real life.

In genuine and proper proceedings, everything has to be done according to procedures, documents by documents, presentation by presentation, appeal by appeal and the process can consume months, years, ages!! and after all these effort, the verdict may not be one's desired decision.

Law is indeed challenging but i cannot find space to express myself freely and creatively through law essays. My favourite subjects are criminal law and English Legal System for subjects such as these gives me room for reasoning and creative thinking but it gets dry and dry upon learning about contracts and agreements and other grey areas of law.It is interesting having the privillege to argue on both phases but it changes to really dull upon subjects that required us to follow everything by the book.


I wanted to continue my law degree part time even though i have no intention of practising law in court . Perhaps , i just do not wish to quit a journey that i have begin walking.After all these years of working and doing a lot of thinking, i realised how lost i was , undecided and i told myself i can no longer live in this way. A Jack Of All Traits is indeed a Master Of None.
In order to reach a destination, my decisions must be firm, so i have decided, to finish my law degree when i have the luxury of time and a successful career lying ahead.

I bumped into an old friend whom has just graduated months ago from UKM. My friend is a graduate from the faculty of engineering but due to the economic downturn he could not land himself any decent jobs and ended up working for Thai Kuang Bookstore. I asked him about his problem and he replied that his major problem will be his language barrier. My poor friend as highly educated as he is with a degree in electrical engineering cannot bypass interviews with private corporations because his command of English is weak.

I thought to myself, a lot of our youth nowdays are not proficient in the English Language. How can i help them? I need a degree and it is also my aspiration to contribute to society and i believe by taking up TESL i am able to guide the young and improvised myself. I am undertaking the necessary preparations at the moment.

If everything goes as plan, i shall be able to tutor part time and run my own cafe before i touch 40.