Thursday, July 15, 2010

Love Is All Around

I grew up in a loving environment watching my parents ,uncles and aunties lovey dovey and they love watching those dramatic Hindustani Bollywood movies on tv .During those years Korean soap operas were not popular among our locals. I grew up watching couples running in circles,circulating trees, rubber palm estates and roll down hills like Jack and Jill.

I recall my aunties used to be able to sing Hindustani songs eventhough they have no idea the meaning behind those lyrics sung. I am able to understand a word or two of the Hindi language ,haha the result of watching so many dramas. It was always the same ending and similar plots. It was always about forbidden love, love among different caste or love between mortals and Deities.

As it was time for me to play the role of an adolescent,i begin to watch cantonese and mandarin kungfu series and love stories. I enjoyed watching stories about swordsmen and their love interest . It was through these movies that i developed an in depth understanding of chinese literature and chinese history and culture. Eternal love legends such as Yang Guo and Xiao Long Nue or the story of the chinese moon Goddess Chang Er and the beautiful love epic of Shah Jahan and Mumtaz Mahal that inspired all lovers and architects worldwide.I read about places and people and it felt like i was there eventhough some stories were just fiction.

I love reading about sacrifices in the name of love and those who dare to love openly and recite poetry and compose beautiful music out of it just like Beethoven and he composed Fur Elise
and the Lover's Concerto written by Bach for Anna.

Nowdays, us guys who daringly love and portray love through tears and sacrifices are deemed as emo,gay or dramatic.Eternal love seemed to be nothing else but an unrealistic fiction but in those days such a love is legendary.People talk about it till this very day.

I have known a friend who waited four years for his beloved to speak to him again without complaints and eventhough after all that wait they were not together,it was never in vain for he waited out of love.

I have also known a guy who was forced into marriage without having an opportunity to fall in love. Love exist in many forms. It is the most simplest concept ever but we as humans choose to complicate things and pollute the pure foundation of love. Society choose to turn love into a trade and filled this idea with requirements and conditions.Love never requires a reason to exist but due to the expectations of society, love becomes cruel,cold and manipulative. Love becomes a bargain and game where the rich monopoly.

I used to believe that love is ever lasting and then i really fell in love and i wanted to own love, to protect love and my attempt of protecting my love becomes excessive,extreme till the extent it became dominating and selfish. I was blinded with ego and i thought it was a part of being in love. I went through hardship and tough times only to understand that love is not about owning but a divine state of love is to give all i can to see the people i love happy and the satisfaction from that deed keeps love growing inside of me.

My friends laughed at me for believing in the concept of eternal love and some of them intentionally show me pictures of my former flame with her new boyfriend just to irritate me but it does not work anymore because i have learned that if i am unable to make her happy,i really wish that someone else can make her happy for me.I am aware that some of you are in the same opinion with that of my friends that i am just idiotic for pretending to be noble but i don't care what people think about me anymore.I believe this is the right way to love someone.

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