Grandma

October 31st marks the date for Celts celebration of spirits coming back for a home visit
It was on this same day that my beloved grandma's soul left her body
I was shaken with disbelief and kept asking myself is this it?
Grandma i should have came back earlier and pay you a visit,i'm left speechless incapable to say it out,only by tears to show you i am sorry

Guided by taoist and rituals that were foreign to me
Walking in circles around your coffin and the funeral parlour
Each circle i take brings back a memory of you and me
Reminding me of how much you have sacrificed for our family,uttering a prayer hoping you could hear

Each time i kneel down,i could hear your words of advice
Flashbacks of my childhood as you bathe, feed and took good care of me
You would wake up as the sun rises just to get my favourite breakfeast and eventhough it was in a village you made sure that my life was comfortable and nice
I never have the opportunity to tell you how much i love you,i hope you are able to see

Every bow i take reminds me of how much you have suffered
As i touch your kind face for the last time it breaks my heart to know that i would not be able to see you again
Of the times you have cried with regrets and the endless pain that you have rendered
I was filled with sorrow too and kept wishing that i could take away your pain

Yet , this is not goodbye for you would always remain in a very special place within my heart
Grandpa misses you so, and so is the rest of our family
Grandma, i have always been afraid that this day would come and we would be really far apart
In someplace,sometime,you have never left, you've always been here with me