My Life's Tune

If you can't be the highway than be the trail. If you can't be the starry sky than just be a star,it is life's greatest philosophy, my life's philosophy . I have never enjoyed fighting over a rice bowl with the others. I have never favor direct competition for i believe in living live feeling contented, fulfilled.

It is pointless to try being the best while in the process friendship collapsed, family members are long gone, those who mean a great deal to me vanishes with history . Where is the glory in achieving millions of dollars and mansion by mansion but upon turning back one fine day, only to realise i'm all alone , walking this path of success.

Competition is inevitable for self improvement but to condemn and beat others to feel better isn't my idea of living meaningfully. It is good to have competition in everything we're engaged to such as dancing, sports, martial arts, work or even poetry . However, if the process of competing may cause grievances to others , then it defeats the idea of a healthy competition.

Once in my life, friends of mine were selected for a dance competition and this cute but silly friend of mine came forward and throw the news to me that my teacher wanted it to be a secret but he felt bad for keeping it to himself for he felt at that time i was a better dancer than himself. I replied to him while smiling that there was nothing to be ashamed or guilty about being selected for a competition. I said " My friend, you've been practising dilligently, if i'm a dance instructor i would have picked you too"

A week later, our teacher contacted me and informed me that i was selected as well. It seemed that at that time he couldn't find me a partner so it took him sometime to decide and choosed another classmate of ours to pair up and compete. At that time i declined the invitation immediately without a second thought eventhough it was an honor to be selected by our teacher, the legendary dancer.

I guess many would have thought or pressumed that i was offended for not being selected earlier that i refused to compete eventhough our teacher personally invited me. However, many do not understand me well enough to see my true intentions. At that point of time, i was very happy for my friend was acknowledged and in the same time was glad that i wasn't given the green light for i was not prepared to face the arena.

If i could turn back time, i would still do the same for i believe i'm not ready yet but my friend was ready. Another hidden reason was that if i ever compete against my friend it places me in a dilemma. By any chance if i triumph over him, it might hurt his feelings though he seemed all cool and all but i know his a really sensitive soul inside. Yet, if he bags the trophy instead of me he will be in a state of guilt too , knowing he was already feeling guilty for keeping the news from me at first.

In both situations, i may upset my friend, so instead of competing i choosed not to participate if winning or losing would still cause such negative implications to him. Anyhow, i was not ready , so it was the right thing to do.It is similar once upon a time ago, my friend and me fell for the same girl but i backed out and assisted him with the process of courtship instead. It sounded really dumb....but i guess i hate to hurt feelings..